Time has come

I'm having a hard time coming to terms that my full-time stay at home mom time is coming to an end.  In just a few short days I return to the working world.  

Deep down I don't want that day to come.

Just a few things running through my mind-

I haven't 'worked' since before Halloween...and to be honest I am ok with that.

My last day of work was a busy one (as always!) with very sick patients.

I was pretty sure baby girl was breach toward the very end- but my doc and ultrasound confirmed I was imagining things. 

I was 'curb walking' everyday, even in the rain.  And I took Parker along with me for fun.

People were telling me I looked great...even though I know I was huge. 

I am very thankful my supervisor called me off for low census my last two shifts because I probably would not have survived the 12+ hour shifts that I work.

I was timing my 'false labor' every other night for a couple of weeks hoping it would turn into the real thing.  It didn't work.

I am not sure why I am reminiscing some of these things, but one thing I know is that I feel my time should not be over.

Again, I am having a hard time dealing with it.  I feel like it wasn't this hard last time.  Or maybe it was, but I just forgot.

Time goes by seriously too fast.

Ok...that's it for now.

-M